At my core, I’m someone who wears her heart on her sleeve. For a long time, people made me feel embarrassed about those emotions.
“Why are you crying?”
“It’s not that funny.”
“Calm down. There’s no reason to get excited.”
“Wow, you really just say what you think, huh?”
“Honestly, you use too many adverbs.”
And even still, these emotions lived very publicly because what else could I do? They were me and I am them.
But then, this past year got really weird and really hard and the balance of my feelings skewed towards a lot more bad days than good ones. I found myself trying not to feel much of anything at all. It turns out, not feeling anything is pretty terrible too.
I take comfort in the total unoriginality of these feelings. I know others feel similar anxiety. I know I’m not the only one looking for the bright spots. My dear friend Sameer wrote openly about deciding to go back on his medication for depression after a decade away from it. My very talented buddy Nikki talks about rediscovering the wholeness of our lives.
As for me, I’m trying to reset the balance of emotions. If I don’t love my day job, I can at least find meaning in my free time. I am learning new things again. I am exploring risk.
It’s not adverbs spilling everywhere, but it’s something.
An interview with Amy Tan.
The story behind this picture.
“Print still makes me gasp with delight.”
Nine books for when you need stories to be a defiant act.
Did you know that Mailchimp (yes, the email company) invests $1 million dollars a year into helping the Atlanta arts scene thrive?
Lincoln in the Bardo was awarded the Man Booker Prize this week, a prize it very much deserved. Go read this book. It’s format will make you uncomfortable. Good.
Imaginary Worlds brings you the story behind Disney’s Haunted Mansion.
The animated film My Life as Zucchini moved me to tears.
A whole channel of Elizabeth Moss projects, please.
I fucking love biscuits. They are basically the perfect food.
When I became (mostly) vegetarian, I decided to figure out tofu. After a number of botched attempts, my friend Sylvie took me out to Eden Center and showed me how magical it could be when properly prepared. Now, I can’t get enough of it. You don’t have to be vegetarian to find delight in such a simple product. Washington Post offers up these 8 ways to prepare it.